Captivity Of Negativity

They call my talks heresy,
They call me an iconoclast,
Cause unlike them I've let go of the past.
Their thinking doesn't progress that fast
Hence they call me a sinner and consider themselves chaste.

Considering scriptures an ordinance,
marked by rigid ideologies and lack of transparence.
They pay obeisance to the unknown,
leading a life that's hapless and forlorn.

My flouting at their beliefs,
irks them no bound.
Their praises for the non-existent,
seems like an afflictive sound.

Their self-righteous sermons,
Their lugubrious lives,
The captivity they hold themselves onto,
due to their feckless principles which are rife,
are leading to nothing but stagnation,
and lighting up the path to annihilation.

I'd rather be blasphemous,
Follow the eschewed path,
Than follow the ideas I'm loath to,
Than take the voyage on which I don't wanna embark.
I want to live a life I can call my own,
And live without worrying about imaginary sins,
for which I'll have to atone.

Soldier Side

As I get ready,
For yet another war.
I start wondering,
Is it really worth fighting for.

Whom am I protecting,
by working against the grain.
Performing unscrupulous acts,
Leading a life of disdain.

Annihilating fellow men,
just cause of their identity.
I rue the fact,
that I have to decapitate my enemy.

Is it worth the torment,
my soul goes through?
That I obliterate a nation,
at behest of power-hungry fools.

Bifurcating families,
Making borders indelible.
Is that what I was born for?
Is that's what my purpose here?

Genuflecting before leaders who act on an impulse,
Blindly following their orders,
Taking lives without remorse.

Risking my life for people so insouciant,
who are indifferent to this pain,
indifferent to this predicament.
Who don't know how its like,
to have such conflicts raging in your head.
And don't care what we go through,
to have them sleep safely in their beds.

Does my life have such a low cost?
Will no one shed a tear,
reminiscing about the reasons I fought?
Will the salvo be the only honor that I ever get?
The honor which only after my death I can taste.

I condemn such a life,
Working for imperious hypocrites.
Who use you as puppets,
to carry out their guile.
Who forsake you when it matters,
at mercy of THEIR adversaries,
Who make you do deeds,
That make you your own worst enemy.

Penitence

O Lord,
Forgive Me,
Cause i am not what I turned out to be,
I Am an antithesis of what Life made of me.

Naive and carefree,
I used to play in the fields.
Future was waiting,
The skies were mine to reach.

The life I had envisioned,
turned out to be a mirage.
As I wandered off course,
Into the chasms of the dark.

They told me my complaisance was necessary for salvation,
They made me an accomplice,
In iniquitous acts against my own nation.

Guns were thrust into the hands that prayed for peace.
Debauched and brainwashed,
I worked according to their wishes.

God relinquished control as Satan was consecrated.
Diabolic leaders made sure,
the importance of power was accentuated.

Blinded By ideologies,
Muted By puritans,
I sabotaged my brethren,
thinking it was for good.
Their blood quenched my thirst,
their cries became my food.

The skulduggery of 'my men',
made matters worse.
The egregious deeds I performed at their will,
were tantamount to a curse.
'Kill if you want to live' was the oxymoron they quoted,
And so further into the tantalizing abyss I was led.

Now as I look at my grave,
sans flowers.
I condemn my acts,
and insatiable greed of power.

Squandering the dainty life,
I slaved for fiends.
Breaking away from all the ties that bind.
The ties I should have cherished,
I should have venerated.
Now I can only watch helplessly,
at the tumult my deeds have generated.

TwIsTeD FaIrYtAlE

When I first met you,
I was head over heels.
There are no words to describe,
What you meant to me.

At the crossroads of my life,
I found solace in your arms.
Awestruck by your beauty,
I was completely disarmed.

Lost in you,
I digressed from my path.
Turned into a quixotic fool,
I thought our relation would last.

But with passage of time,
everything changed.
Your nitpicking, Your carping,
ruined everything we'd made.

You'd fallen in love,
with the man you wanted me to be.
Accepting me as I am,
was too difficult a promise to keep.

Leaving me unconscionably,
was such an easy task.
I rue I couldn't see the depravity,
behind your benevolent mask.

Now my life's in dire straits,
My path is tortuous again.
Falling in love left me with nothing,
But excruciating pain.

Now the book of my life,
has an unfinished page,
Misery and debilitation,
marked this phase.

The void thus created,
Can never be filled.
It has shaken the very foundation,
On which this love was built.

Leaving You For Good

Silly,futile yeah that's me for you.
You have a habit of finding wrong in everything that I do.
In the time I spent with you, I've lost my identity,
Will you turn over a new leaf??? Well I've no guarantee.

All the days we spent together made me feel so worthless,
Never had I imagined I would put my life in such a mess.
Criticism yeah thats the only thing you're good at,
How I wish to God we had never met.

GO AWAY, I am saying it for the first and the last time,
Just STAY AWAY,Now I have realized loving you with all my heart was a crime.
I have lost my sanity, I am not the person I used to be,
I am leaving you for good because now you mean nothing to me.

Your smile was charming, Your looks were haunting,
Never had I imagined you would rip my soul with your satires and tauntings.
My heart bleeds reminiscing over the past,
How was I to know it wasn't meant to last.

I will erase you from my mind cause the damage is beyond repair,
Our Relation was single sided because you never used to care.
I will never let your aura besiege me again,
I am happy left alone rather than bear torture and pain.

Now And Forever

Days, months, years may pass,
for eternity my love for you will last.
I'll be by your side come whatever may,
Hands together we'll weather the storms and the rains.

I walked this dark and endless road alone,
When i found you, the sun finally shone.
The blue skies, The colorful life is beckoning with open arms,
My Life has never been so Charmed!!

It's Your dazzling smile, Your zest for life,
Your condoning my vices which are so rife,
I love everything that you stand for,
When I am down and out and feel life's unfair,
Your presence takes the pain away from here,
I love everything that you stand for

Never had i felt this way, Never had it felt so right,
You're my guardian angel, I'll never let you out of my sight.
You're the beacon that lights my world,The one that puts all misery away,
I know this is for real,This is forever ,my love for u will never fade

If words fail me, you'll see it in my eyes.
This flame of love shall never die.
I promise to be with you through thick and thin,
If you Open the door of your heart and let me in.

Perdition

My journey to perdition began on a day,
A day like none other,
A day when my conscious finally found a reason to wake.

The dignity, The glory was all past me,
The sanguinary acts, the bodies were too much to see.
Blinded by tears of blood i had a decision to make,
To be a victim at their hands Or make them pay.
Turning to arms wasn't as unscrupulous as I thought,
I guess the thought of vindication kept me going along.

The blood on my hand doesn't make me cringe anymore,
Helplessness was a state much harder to endure.
Now i work for a cause, for emancipation of my kin,
Who are in a stupor like me,
And don't know how their journey will begin.

This ain't terrorism, This is a vendetta,
Against the corrupt world and its heinous propaganda.
That's gonna lead us to perdition anyway,
There are gonna be no winners and losers in this affray.